The lockdown is ending, I am still an introvert

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The lockdown is ending, it’s been more than a year. It took time to adjust to it. Mostly to adjust to the anxiety and uncertainty of what would happen next in my life.

Now the lockdown is ending and I feel so glad it is. Again mostly because the blanket of anxiety that the pandemic caused is lifting. Businesses will run again, my day job is secured, I can apply for illustration jobs at companies that are still running.

One of the ways I coped during the lockdown was by making artwork. By focusing on one small white rectangle I could control at a time. I think it was what kept me going.

Here, in this small world, I control all things and it is always safe.

And I realised I really enjoy these rectangles, weirdly, sitting alone putting bits of colour on a surface lets me better connect with the world.

As I work, I feel whatever feeling are related to that piece. And I picture how it might make others feel, where they might put it. If it’s a sticker, will it be on a water bottle they see every day? If it’s a piece of art, which room will it live in? And in this way, I feel more connected to people. Even if I never meet them.

I’ll continue to spend more time than what some would consider normal sitting alone and staring at white rectangles. It is my way of connecting with the world.